I sit here with a squirmy monkey on my lap wondering will I ever get anything accomplished again, and if I do manage to get something done will it not be half assed.
The dishes have piled up because I still do not have hot water. I get to spend the afternoon sitting around waiting for the repair technician to come do something with my hot water tank.
My last post I abruptly left because of a last-minute impromptu photo shoot. That went very well and I am so excited to edit the pictures however something that brings me such enjoyment is becoming a chore because Adam is only interested in what Mommy is doing and nothing else. I had him in the kangaroo pouch so I could try to get work done but he proceeded to spit up all over everything and the pouch now needs to be cleaned.
I have excellent time management skills so it’s frustrating to me that I can’t manage my time to get simple things done. It has me sitting here wondering if I should give up my photography business because I don’t think I can do everything. I have made commitments I’m now wondering if I can maintain just because of the sheer amount of work that comes with it. These commitments are to things I love and look forward to year after year.
I’ve sacrificed so much already, do I really have to sacrifice what little I am clenching onto because of Adam?
I do not regret having him, but I am angry because I can’t figure out this balance thing.
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